When I Despair

“When I despair, I remember that all through history, the way of truth and love has always won.” –Gandhi

That’s the quote embroidered on this quilt.

I finally got around to hanging it in the sewing room. I hung a rod that is a place for me to change out the quilt being displayed whenever I feel like I need a change.

I worked on this quilt years ago. You can see the details and read about it here.

It’s the quote that is hanging with me now.

Despair is not conducive to creativity. These days, I spend a lot of time and energy on despair. Some of you may feel the same way. Others will think I’m being a drama queen. The point is not how any of us SHOULD be feeling. Feelings happen. The goal of those of us who are grown-ups is to learn to cope with them, or at the very least to learn to work through them and not be imprisoned by them.

Gandhi is a leader in this area. He is famous for recognizing that anger is a tool that can be harnessed.

Apathy was what he considered to be the enemy of the good.

So in an effort to shake off both apathy and despair (which I recognize as being diametrically opposed) I decided my sewing needs to start small.

I’m not ready or able to take on a big project. Maybe soon.

But for the next few days, I’m going to focus on these 2 piles of scraps. One is of old upholstery samples, and the other is a pile of jeans…most from my father, but the cute pockets are from another project I had in mind at some point.

I plan to start serging and see where it takes me. I want to make some grocery bags because I want to permanently replace all those plastic bags. Forever. Which means I need a supply of large sturdy bags.

Wish me luck.

I am starting without any clear direction, which is never a good plan.

But sometimes you have to take a leap of faith and start the work and hope the creativity shows up.

Stay strong, fellow stitchers.

This, too, shall pass.

Love in the Time of COVID19

These are frightening times.

No matter how prepared we are, we know that something is coming that is just not what we’ve experienced any time in our lives.

Talking to my 86 year-old father, I asked him if he ever remembers anything like this.

“No!” he says with wide eyes. “This is the whole world.”

The whole world.

I watch images from Italy of people on their balconies, singing to and with each other. I see Chef Jose Andres from World Food Kitchen shaving his beard in order to serve others food while wearing a mask.I read about the elderly couple waiting anxiously in their car to ask someone who looks kind to take their money and go purchase groceries for them, because they are terrified to go into the store–they both have existing conditions that put them at risk.

I see air pollution drastically cut as factories are shut down. I see the fossil fuel industry being reduced in a way none of us could EVER have corrected on our own.

I think this virus has reminded us that we in the whole world are dependent on one another like never before. It has reminded us that we cannot control our entire ecosystem, but that we are simply a part of it. We don’t write the rules. Even when we think it’s all under our control…it’s really not.

It’s humbling. It’s humbling if we are wise enough to recognize these things.

As I write this, I am suffering from a sinus infection from a head cold I had two weeks ago (which I get every year at this time). Should I go to the doctor? Will I end up with something worse than a sinus headache?

I don’t have any answers.

Wait. Yes, I do.

We have the only answer that has ever really existed. (At the risk of returning to my sorry seventies self.)

Love is the answer.

Please take care of yourself, stay healthy, love one another, and support your local quilt shop.